I Stand All Amazed

Hello Humans! I wake up every morning just amazed. Amazed that I am in Hawaii, in a wonderful community of students who love each other and help each other learn and draw closer to Christ. I am amazed at the journey of me getting to where I am today. I am amazed at the many miracles that took place along the road to Laie. I wake up with a grateful heart, and go to bed praising the name of the Lord. The scripture Alma 26:12 came into mind. It reads, “Yea, I know that I am nothing; as to my strength I am weak; therefore I will not boast of myself, but I will boast of my God, for in his strength I can do all things; yea, behold, many mighty miracles we have wrought in this land, for which we will praise his name forever.” I feel the exact same way as Alma does when he’s writing this. I know that there was no way that I could have gotten here without his help in every step of the way. I know that it was not my strength to get through those long and sometimes painful days and weeks of working two jobs, but his strength. I know that he prompted the housing department to move me Hales, and the Science department to give me a chance with my jobs. I know that he is the one that made my brain wired for Science and Math.

With that said, I Stand All Amazed. "I stand all amazed at the Love Jesus offers me. Confused at the Grace that so fully he proffers me. I tremble to know that for me, He was crucified. That for me, a sinner, He suffered, He bled and died. Oh it is wonderful that He should care for me, enough to die for me. Oh it is wonderful, wonderful to me. I marvel that He would descend from his throne divine to rescue a soul so rebellioius and proud as mine. That He should extend His great love unto such as I. Sufficient to own, to redeem, and to justify. Oh it is wonderful that He should care for me, enough to die for me. Oh it is wonderful, wonderful to me. I think of His hands pierced and bleeding to pay the debt. Such mercy, such love and devotion, can I forget? No, no I will praise and adore at the mercy seat, until at the glorified throne I kneel at His feet. Oh it is wonderful that He should care for me, enough to die for me. Oh it is wonderful, wonderful to me. " Hymn 193 has been my favorite for as long as I can remember. When I was little, I liked it because you got to sing “no, no” as part of the lyrics. Now I realize it’s deep meaning about the Savior’s love for me. I cry every time I sing it because I feel of my Savior’s love.

Today during church, a member of my Bishopric bore his testimony. During it he said, “You need to make the most of you experience here at BYU-H. Because for every one of you that is here, there are one hundred other people that would love to be in your place.” And even though I wake up every morning in awe of how I got here and the fact that I am in Paradise, it really hit home. It really made me realize just how lucky I am to be in a church school that is in one of the most beautiful parts of the world. I promised myself then to always make the most of every moment, no matter how amazing or awful. And that also goes for you, Reader. Think of the people in Africa who would do anything to be out of poverty and living somewhere safe and war-free. So, make the most out of every moment, no matter how amazing or awful it may be. Stay wild, flower child.