You'll hear me Roar.

Hello Humans! This post is all about me. "I used to bit my tongue and hold my breath. Scared to rock the boat and make a mess. So I sit quietly, agree politely. I guess that I forgot I had a choice. I let you push me past the breaking point. I stood for nothing, so I fell for everything. You held me down, but I got up. Already brushing off the dust. You hear my voice, you hear that sound. Like thunder going to shake your ground. You held me down, but I got up. Get ready, cuz I've had enough. I see it all, I see it now. I've got the eye of the tiger, a fighter. Dancing through the fire, because I am a champion, and you're going to hear me roar. Louder, louder than the lion, cuz I am a champion. And you're going to hear me roar. You're gonna hear me roar. Now floating like a butterfly, stinging like a bee, I earned my stripes. I went from zero, to my own hero. You held me down, but I got up. Already brushing off the dust. You hear my voice, you hear that sound. Like thunder going to shake your ground. You held me down, but I got up. Get ready cuz I've had enough. I see it all, I see it now. I've got the eye of the tiger, a fighter. Dancing through the fire, cuz I am a champion. And you're going to hear me roar. Louder, louder than the lion, cuz I am a champion. And you're going to hear me roar. You'll hear me roar. You're going to hear me roar."

Well, as the moment stands, I now know why I was supposed to come to Hawaii, whether it be for just a semester, or a couple of years. It wasn't to find a man to marry, it wasn't to get closer to my Heavenly Father, although that is a side effect of being here, it wasn't to be on the beach everyday, and it certainly wasn't to study science at a prestigious College of Science. But looking back on the month and a half that I've been here. I now know why.

Being raised in Utah, as I've talked to many different people from around the world, is a very unique and weird experience. It's a great idea, to be surrounded by other people of your same religion, but that doesn't make you more spiritual, have more friends, or get married easier. In fact, I've found with some people in my ward, and myself, it's the exact opposite. One reason, is that in today's day and age, the youth like to either stand out, or fit in. To "fit in" in Utah, means being the perfect Mormon. To stand out, you rebel. In Utah though, enough people have wanted to stand out, and people think it's cool, that it's the new normal, and the new way to fit in. So, now people like me, stand out, even in Utah. So, society in Utah has taught me to "fit-in" to the rebellious crowd. But, I'm Mary Winchester. I'm not normal. I don't like to fit-in, no matter how hard friends, family, and society tried to get me to. This always left me feeling uncomfortable in my skin, but to do anything else would be to betray me, and my soul. I have strong opinions, like weird things, study science, and dress in an un-conventional way. People don't like those things in Utah.

So, that's why I came to Hawaii. To finally feel comfortable in my own skin. It's not like some magical thing happened where I had the most friends, or all the Professors gave me straight A's, or I became president of the world. In fact, I have very few friends, will have to work hard in my classes, and I don't want to be president of the world. But little things, like my roommates loving my passion for science, and people loving all of my weird nick-nacks on my shelves, and being included in fun events throughout campus. People on the Island don't really care how you dress, look, or even act. As long as you are kind and have a good vibe about you, they love you like a family member. This is incredible compared to Utah, where you have to be the most spiritual, most popular, or most intelligent to be even considered to be liked. I hope I can take this "good vibe tribe" approach with me back to Utah, when the time is right that I shall return.

I have also seen, that I have a world to impact and to change. As mentioned in previous posts, the majority of Biology/BioChemistry majors here on the Island are Pre-Med students. This isn't a bad thing, because Doctors are good. But, who on Earth is going to discover the new technologies, drugs, and procedures for the Doctors to use, if everyone is becoming Doctors? Who is supposed to make life-changing discoveries that will change the way we look at the Universe? Who is going to make an energy-efficient car, and new clean forms of energy? Who is going to make better, healthier GMO's so that we don't outgrow our food supply? Me. I'm a Scientist, and I'm going to change the world. All of you doctors will soon be using the technology, drugs, and reactions that I discover. Just wait a few more years, and you'll be hearing me roar. Stay wild, flower child.