(Un)Lost

Hello Humans! A few months ago, when I decided that I was coming to BYU-Hawaii, I made my decision based on a few things. One, it was Hawaii, so why not. Two, it was a chance to fully start over. Last, but certainly not least, it was a chance to really find myself. A chance to discover who I really am. Am I a good Mormon, or just an average person? Am I really smart, or is it all just in my head? Is the Scientific field what I really need to work in one day? Do I really belong by the Ocean? What are my personality traits? Am I mean or full of charity? Will I continue to be single for a while? Well, I can tell you that I have received answers to many of these things so far. Some I still have no idea of the answer or when it will come. But I do know that I have found myself, my true self. I have become one with myself, the Universe, and the spirit. I am no longer lost. I am finally unlost.

"I'm not looking for anything in particular, although I'm far more desperate than you'd think. I wonder what it's like to be the Universe experiencing itself, ironically. I need some space to run around. I'll always have the underground. I'll build my road despite the cost. I'm not looking to be found. No, no not at all. I have no idea of where I'm going, but if I'm going anywhere at all, I know I'll take the leap if it is worth the fall. So long as the blood keeps flowing, I'll set a sail and swim across. I'm not looking to be found, just want to feel unlost. With my eyes closed this feels like home. Adrift in my own head and all I really know is whatever this is doesn't get easier. So take it slow, just take it slow. Between the silence and the sound I'll never lose the underground. I'll build my road despite the cost. I'm not looking to be found. No, no not at all. I have no idea of where I"m going, but if I'm going anywhere at all, I know I'll take the leap if it is worth the fall. So long as the blood keeps flowing, I'll set my sail and swim across. I'm not looking to be found, just want to feel unlost. The world is ours but for a flash. And you are not allowed to be anybody else. Control what you can, confront what you can't. And always remember how lucky you are to have yourself. I have no idea of where I'm going, but if I'm going anywhere at all, I know I'll take the leap if it is worth the fall. So long as the blood keeps flowing I'll set a sail and swim across. I'm not looking to be found, just want to feel unlost."

I am so grateful for the opportunity I have had to come over to the Rock and find myself. While I have not discovered everything or have all the answers yet, I am finally unlost. Stay wild, flower child.