I'm The One
Hello Humans! Well, this is my second time typing this out, because my computer decided to be stupid and delete this whole blog post. So, hopefully the second time will work out better. Recently, and by recently I mean today, I had a change of perspective. For the first time in I can ever remember, I have felt happy and joyous and ecstatic to be single. To not have a significant other in my life, or someone to love me in my life. And I'm perfectly fine with it. Why? Well, I have no one to hold me down. I can live where I want to live, study what I love to learn, and do what I want to do. If I don't like something, no big deal! I can just change it. It's the chance for me to be me. And even though I'm still learning and growing into my new skin, I am more confident in myself than ever.
During my senior year of high school, I would cry and cry and sit and stare at the wall while listening to my favorite album: Quadrophenia by the Who. Two songs hit me hard in that album: "I'm One," and "Love, Reign O're Me." I would cry over them because I wanted someone in my life, and felt all alone and like that no one would ever love me. I started to hate myself, and because of it, I changed into something I was not. The past two years have been some hard work un-doing all the damage done to myself during that time, but I think I am finally towards the end of the mountain I am climbing. Upon listening to these songs again today, they took on a new meaning.
"Every year is the same, and I feel it again. I'm a loser, no chance to win. Leaves start falling, comedown is calling. Loneliness starts sinking in. But I'm one. I am one. And I can see that this is me, and I will be. You'll all see I'm the one. Where do you get those blue, blue jeans? Faded, patched secret, so tight. Where do you get that walk oh-so lean? Your shoes and your shirt's all just right. I'm one. I am one. And I can see that this is me, and I will be. You'll all see that I'm the one. I've got a Gibson, without a case. But I can't get that even-tanned look on my face. Ill fitting clothes, I'm just laying in the crowd. Fingers so clumsy, my voice too loud. I'm one. I am one. And I can see that this is me, and I will be. You'll all see I'm the one. I'm the one. I am the one."
To me, "I'm One" was about being lonely and accepting your loneliness. While it still holds that meaning, it means something more. It means accepting who you are as one person. Accepting you for you, and not caring what anyone else thinks of you. The past few months, I've started to realize that statement is what matters in life, when you want to find your true self, and become at peace with yourself and the Universe.
"Only Love can make it rain the way the beach is kissed by the sea. Only Love can make it rain, like the sweat of lovers laying in a field. Love, reign o're me. Love, reign o're me. Reign o're me. Reign o're me. Only Love can bring the rain that makes you yearn to the sky. Only Love can bring the rain that falls like tears from on high. Love, reign o're me. Reign o're me, reign o're me. Love, reign o're me. Reign o're me, reign o're me. On the dry and dusty road, the nights we spent apart and alone. I need to get back home to cool, cool rain. I can't sleep, and I lay and I think. The night is hot and black as ink. Oh man, I need a drink of cool, cool rain. Love, reign o're me. Reign o're me. O're me, o're me. Love, reign o're me. O're me. Love."
Like, "I'm One," I used to think that "Love, Reign O're Me," was all about love from someone else finding you, and also being lonely. While it also still holds it's original meaning in my heart, it means something more. It means to me that the Love of the Universe reigns over you. You become one with the Universe's vibrations. Then the Universe can have it's Love reign o're you. I want to have the Love of the Universe reign o're me, so much so that I can then make that Love rain over the other humans that live on this planet we call Earth. I don't care about the love of other's anymore, but the Love of the Universe. Stay wild, flower child.