On Creating Demons

Hello Humans! Really the only hero I ever want to win is Iron Man. Whether that's in the comics or in the movies, I normally want the villains to win, except for Iron Man. I don't know what hooked me first, his scientific mind, his cunning jokes, or his villainous mind. I'm not going to throw punches around the bag this time, so here it goes, I like villains the most. The bad boys, the ones who make things unpredictable and crazy fun. Most heroes are predictable, except Iron Man. You never know when he's going to stab Captain America in the back, blow up all his suits, or change the face of his company from weapons to clean energy.

The reason I bring Iron Man up, is because he is someone I look up to. Someone I wish to be like someday. There's one line that is said in Iron Man 3 that has always stuck with me. "We create our own Demons." Now why would this stick with me? Well, first of all, it's what the entire movie is about. How not meeting someone up on a rooftop to discuss a business idea turned him from a suicidal scientist into a homicidal maniac, due to a grudge. Lately, I've been thinking about that in my life. Which demons am I creating right now, in which twenty or thirty or even fifty years will come back to haunt me? I know that I'm not the nicest person on the planet, even though I'd like to think that. I know my faults, it's just that others don't know that I know what they are. But I know my faults and I don't look at them as faults, but as things that will take me further in life than others. Gifts, one may say. My confidence and pride in myself and my work has taken me far with getting jobs, managing a team of workers, and succeeding in school. When I want to own a place, you'd better move out of my way.

The way I look at myself is the only opinion that matters to me. I've learned that the hard way through life. When you are confident and happy with yourself, everything else just falls into place. I've gotten myself this far in life, and there isn't much more until I'm on the easy road. So yeah, I don't need nor want anyone of significance in my life. Because where were they when I needed them most? Nowhere to be found. It was me who got me through those nights of silently crying myself to sleep No one else. No one else is allowed to enter my heart, because no amount of happiness that comes from it is worth the pain that follows soon after. From now on, that's how I will run my life. And if I create demons on the way, so be it. I'll just defeat them later on in life. Stay wild, flower child.